Hmm . I've thought it through . Once bitten , twice shy . Miss Ng might be right this time round . I might do what she advice :D Shakesphere 说 : To be or not to be , that's a question . So should I or should I not ? Sigh . I rather not be in stuck a situation where accepting is a mistake, not accepting is also a mistake . It soooo totally sucks :x Sorry , for me being such a fucker . I know I'll hurt at least 2 person and above no matter what decision I made . And the worst case , I'll hurt 4 person . Sigh , why must it be now ? Why cant it be much much earlier or later ? Why at this moment ? People say being in a love triangle is hard and headache . Being in a love rectangle , i suppose that's worse -.- I think I'll just see my mood when it happens .
Band Practice have stopped ! Yes :D . FINALLY ! ~ Exam is coming ! WTH ! I havent revised anything yet -.- I think im going to fail soooo badly that i dont even know how am i going to die . And I've already started to think what im going to be in the future. But when i tell that to someone , he said ' Dont be soo unrealistic lah . Think of something more practical ? ' Like wth . Ok lah , maybe im just being unrealistic . Nvm , im not going to bother much now . Let's just wait for the result . Maybe I'll just get bang down by a speeding car tmr outside school ? And go into a coma ? And i do not need to do my EOY papers ?! Or maybe Ill get killed by the car ? And I dont even have to worry for my future and the awkward situation I am in now . Life is just a show , isnt it . Im always getting disapproving looks from everyone . Why is it that i cant be supported with what i choose ? Even if i know im going to get hurt , I still go ahead . Without sufferings or setbacks , life is just a bore, isnt it ? I know they care for me . They dont want to see me get hurt by the same choice i made again . And so , I've got chided for many times regarding this . I guess this time round , I'll be able to carry out my promise to chocolato , peppermints and kor . And also to many many people .
And someone just told me smth . He said that someone is not happy with what i did . He told me the class and the BIGGEST problem is that I DONT KNOW MANY GUYS FROM THAT CLASS LAH ! Like wth . He said that it could be I lied to that person . Another problem is , since i dont know much guys from that class , HOW DO I MAKE PROMISES TO THAT PERSON LAH ! Walao eh . Wth did i do sia ? Aiyah , though I wont really care much . But then it still affects me -.-
